Looking back.

Its Pondering Time again, this time with the occasional munching of chips.

I've been looking back at my own past.

On the 29th Oct 1985, I was born. My name was given to me by my Aunt.
Kaiwei - Victorious and Impressive thats what it means.

Being the only child with both parents working, I was always under the care of my Maternal grandparents. Although I didnt take their surname, they still showered me with tons of tender loving care. Being the only grandson for 15 years was kind of a luxury!

I started my kindergarten at the local PAP kindergarten. I was topping my class until I was about Primary 4. After that I slowly went on a decline! Haha. I was also a Model student back in Hong Dao Primary, claiming 2 Model student of the year awards!

Took my PSLE and gotten an aggregate of 241, got into Ang Mo Kio Secondary School.
Wasnt a very sociable person I must say, was afraid of talking to girls up till about Sec 3. (And I've been in a mix school for like 8 years by then. If you dont count kindergarten.) Didnt play sports, cant kick a soccer ball or bounce a basketball for nuts sake. The only thing I was good at was badminton, sadly I've still retained my standard at it. (Its not good, I didnt improve.) I was all along an average student then, being consistently in the 29th-40th position in class.

The climax came during the 1st semester in Sec 2. I was last in class. Never had I occupied that position, I was so down and deflated. Somehow I managed to push myself beyond that, by the end of the year I was 21st in class. I still got to the "worst" sec 3 express class.

I didnt do quite well in Secondary 3 - 4 as well. I had a consistent B3 to A1 grades for most of my subjects, apart from A-maths which is usually an F. I gave up on it, I was absent for it during the O's. Gotten a prelim results of 20, I went to YJ for my 1st 3 months of JC life. Met this bunch of wonderful people that is from my orientation group, Aeneas. And of course not forgetting my wonderful Na! Life in YJ was full of adventure and excitment! I didnt attend school more than 1 month, most of the time I skipped school with 3 other people. Haha. Played pool, played pool and played more pool. =/ That year, my grandfather died from cancer.

After getting back the O's result, I headed to SRJC to carry on the rest of my JC life. Life there was okay, I've got this bunch of wonderful classmates and friends. Somehow by some weird stroke of luck, I became the President of IT Club, although I only joined the Club because my friend pulled me in. Wasnt that good in man management then, but I would still say I didnt do quite badly. Still had the same problem with Maths C, never passed it throughout J1. I promoted to J2 with grades like D,E,F.

Had changes made to our teachers. From 2 HODs, we were given 2 Subject heads. I didnt like Alex Lum, but Kwek was not too bad. Mr Kwek showed alot of patience in teaching the few of us that were CMI in maths. And with the introduction of Statistics, I've managed to pull off an AO pass in the Mid Year Exams. At prelims I've gotten an E for Maths and finally in the A's, I've gotten a B for it. So it was the end of JC.

Ended up in army as a chao recruit. Spent my first 4 months in Foxtrot Coy, Plt4. Didnt really keep in contact with friends I've made then. Was pretty excited that I managed to pass my IPPT at the end of it. Because I didnt pass it since P4. Haha.

Time to go beyond a recruit, I managed to make my way to OCS, a place which changed my life tremendously. A place where camaraderie was at its best. A place where guys, really bond together. Learnt alot from each other and from our instructors. At this place "The Gang" was forged. A really wonderful phase of my life.

Commissioned, went to 6SIR. Had a totally different perspective of life then. I finally saw people of different walks of life. I had to earn their respect and fast. Because my upper studys were gone in 24hours and my PS, Liao is only a week older than me in the Plt. I've changed some lives, and the feeling is great. Although this feeling didnt last long, it still made me a better man. Committed an error and life falls apart. "The Gang" further strengthened. ORDed.

Got a temp job at John Little. Had my first ever working experience. So happy that I can put that in my Resume. Learnt to handle tough customers and see the ugly side of many Singaporean shoppers.

GOT ADDICTED TO World Of Warcraft! Which is not a good thing.

Entered NUS, kind of loss there on the first day, but luckily I saw Zhongwei. Ever since, I've stuck to him like bees to honey for my first semester. My class was a wonderful lot. Friendly and nice. Became 21, time to grow up and worry about my future. Because I worry, I decided to change to Arts (Econs). I believe this is a great change, and it better be...

So now, its time for me to go do some revision for my coming test....

Signing off.

Kai.

Fancy a good argument?

Once again I've stolen something from Ed's blog.

Best of all I love the straightforward and frank type of people
who fall into the third category and engage people in meaningful
conversations. I never shy away from a good argument and I love to
observe the viewpoints of others, accepting and finding flaws in my own and
learning in the process. Many people have opinions and its only when you express
them can you make a change and difference to what we do, who we are and
ultimately where we are going.

Vexillum (http://www.edkieu.com/blog/) (Retrieved on 31/03/07)

Personally I wouldnt want to go into an argument with Edgar, good or bad. Why?

Because you cannot win! Save your efforts. Haha.

Finally.......

I've finally completed my 2nd Philosophy paper. Sending in a draft tmr.
After many days of pondering and thinking, I hope I've made sense of my paper. But after reading for so many times, I do not seem to find it VERY Philosophical.

But I am suppose to apply Mill's fundamental principle to real life events. Hmm, I'm confused.

If I've confused myself, lets hope my tutor will enlighten me soon enough.


And now.

Time to enjoy a good night rest.

Home networking.

I've just set up my home network.

And I'm loving it.

DBS IB Secure.

If any of you reading my blog happen to have a DBS Internet Banking Acct, and have the DBS IB Secure device, please take extreme care of it.

Mine dropped on the floor from table height and the result? - The LCD cracked.

There is a replacement charge of $20/- exclusive of GST.

But look on the bright side, the customer service officer was friendly and polite. And thats the first time I've encountered a male cust. service officer.

But oh well.

And I found and terminated the mosquito that was sucking my blood. But not before getting myself another 7 more bites..

What Irony.

"Ding Donggg..." my doorbell rang.

I opened the door and saw a man from the National Environment Agency.

He claimed he was here to check for possible breeding spots for mosquitoes and asked if I had any problems with mosquitoes at home. And told me of a Dengue case in my neighbourhood.

So I brought him around and he was quite pleased with the result.

Just as I was leading him out of the house, I felt an itch at my thigh and now that I'm touching/scratching my thigh, I realised it was a mosquito bite. =/

Smurfs are COMMUNISTS!

Smurfs. the cute blue creatures that sing cute songs are actually commies!

Check it out:
http://www.iamlost.com/features/smurfs/commies.shtml

Power Naps.

And the winner is MIDDAY SNOOZE!

Corporate culture has it wrong:
When you snooze, you win!

A daytime doze is a stress buster and heart protector. Just 30 minutes midday, three times a week, is all you need. Middle-aged working men who did just that cut their risk of a fatal heart attack and other heart problems by a whopping 37 percent.

Although the study focused on working men, women would probably benefit as well. Naps are a great stress reducer. You've heard how stress can damage your health, but how it causes heart disease remains unclear. Blame the stress hormones that course through

Roll over to enlarge your veins when you are under pressure. Researchers think these hormones may damage organs, glands, and blood vessels. Or bad influence could be at fault, because stress can drive you to unhealthy behaviors like smoking, overeating, and skipping your workout. What is clear about stress: Pressure-cooker jobs increase your chances of accumulating risk factors for heart disease, such as obesity, high blood pressure, and high cholesterol. So for sweet dreams and a more relaxed (and happier) you, do as the Spaniards do -- take a siesta! Can't nap on the job? Catch some midday ZZZs on the weekend. Just be sure to set an alarm clock -- sleep too long and you'll have trouble sticking to your regular bedtime.


Sleeping is good.
But how to get yourself to sleep?

4 steps taken off the RealAge.com website


1.
Get on a schedule. Your body clock runs best when you’re on a regular sleep schedule, like a baby. Aim to get up at the same time every day -- whether you have a full day of work or a full day of cartoons. On the weekends, try to rise within one hour of the time you get up during the week.
2.
Change your temperature. The ideal setting for sleep is a cool, dark room. If you’re having trouble sleeping, try removing a layer of clothing (like socks) or lowering the thermostat.
3.
At night, eat foods that contain melatonin -- a substance that helps regulate the body clock. That means oats, sweet corn, or rice. Or try a complex carbohydrate that has serotonin, like vegetables or whole-grain pasta. You can also go with the classic remedy: skim milk. Of course, you know to avoid stimulants like caffeine and exercise near bedtime. And try to avoid eating within 3 hours of going to bed.
4.
Use your bedroom only for sleep and sex. It is best to take work materials, computers, and televisions out of the sleeping environment.

Now why sleep is good?

PS. All data posted for this post has been taken wholesale from www.realage.com

L.E.O

To Lead.
To Excel.
To Overcome.

Something that has been drilled deeply inside me.

Regardless of what I've lost, I know I cannot regain lost land.

I'll have to lead my way out of this wilderness.
Excel in my studies, and hopefully through this excellence path a wonderful route to retirement.
I know I can overcome this.

When theres a will theres a way.
When theres no way, bash your way out.

Although it seems weird to pep talk myself, I know with all the people behind me, I can even move Everest.

Colours to my life.

http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/

You are tending to pursue your objectives with concentrated intensity and it would seem that whatever obstacles may come into your path, you will stick to your guns and will not allow yourself to be deflected from your purpose. You are striving to achieve recognition and what is more - you deserve it.

You are feeling very vulnerable at this time. Nothing seems to be going in the right direction - business wise, private-life wise, everything. You need some emotional security and an environment which could possibly provide fewer problems, but the way you are feeling you can't be bothered even to make the effort.

Being emotionally inhibited you have no alternative at this time but to be a 'watcher' rather than a 'doer'. At this time you feel as if you are being forced to compromise and stand back. But this is not the true you. Deep down there is that warm 'open' you which is awaiting the moment to burst forth - maybe like the chrysalis which will soon become the butterfly.

You are frustrated and stressed. You appreciate the finer things in life but at all times you appear to stay aloof, critical of everything and everyone about you. You will not be carried away by your emotions and you refuse to trust anyone or any situation unless genuineness and integrity can be absolutely vouched for. Therefore, you keep a strict and watchful control on your feelings as you must know exactly where you stand at all times. You demand complete sincerity as a protection against your own tendency to be too trusting.

You really would like to be completely uninhibited - to let your hair down - but you are held back by your sense of logic and rationalilty, since you realise that by simple stupidity you could lose everything - whatever that may be.

Pain

I am closing my eyes, sitting on the bed.
As I slowly let my mind wander, I start to ponder.
What is it I want, what are all these for?
Why do I feel this way, why do I weep to sleep?
Why the undue stress for my desire to ace?

While my mind slips into this wilderness,
I embrace this feeling with the aches on my body.
Shuddering in pain, my mind ceased to think,
Instead it questions my very existence.

No one knows what pain it brings,
Besides the convoy of pain himself.
He who brings pain, feels the pain.
Nothing I say can turn back time,
All I seek is a phoenix's cry.
To give back life to this body of mine.

I've thought I've outgrown it,
I've thought I've casted it aside.
But it still bugs me, day and night.
Clearly I have failed the task,
The mission to bring me back my life.

Book.

This just occurred to me.
I am going to compile all those Papers that I've written and those that are going to be written and make them into a book!

I actually wanted to say something about what I feel towards the wage raise of top civil servants. But I'm pretty afraid I'll step on the wrong side of the OB marker. So it will just remain in my mind.

My First Philosophy Paper

I've just gotten back my Philosophy Paper, and the grade is not bad.

For your reading pleasure.

The topic was something about defending Euthyphro's decision to prosecute his own father for causing the death of their dependent.

In the passage, Euthyphro indicts his father on the charges of murder of a dependent of their family whom is guilty of the murder of one of their household slaves. Euthyphro argues that it is being pious and holy to prosecute his own father for crimes he committed and he being a prophet knows it best. There are several approaches to attempt this question. Euthyphro is obviously not in the best of relationship with his father and perhaps that is one of the reasons why he has chosen to indict his father, however for purposes of this paper we could consider other arguments, which actually shows that his views are actually very valid and applicable in the real world.

Being an established prophet himself, Euthyphro has an image to maintain. How can he supposedly the bridge between men and gods have a father who is both unholy and guilty of a hideous crime of murder? Furthermore, in the “Euthyphro” Euthyphro has claimed that “Socrates – there wouldn’t be any difference between Euthyphro and the man on the street – if I did not have accurate knowledge of all such things.” (P.11) Clearly Euthyphro here is stating that he have absolute clarity with the definitions of holiness. With his expertise in the study of holiness and piousness, Euthyphro himself feels that there is a need for him to set the standards to the masses and to educate them on what is holy and the right thing to do. He also feels that he is obliged to answer to the public for the crimes that his father has committed. And by displaying justice in the form of prosecuting his own father for murder he feels that he has answered to the masses and also he is setting the standards for the correct thing to do so that the future generations could follow. Taking this argument into the real world, we could use an illustration of a policeman who knows his father committed a crime. Would it be the right thing to do for the policeman to turn in his father? Or is it pious for the policeman to keep mum about the incident and let his father go scot-free? The answer is pretty straightforward here, the policeman must remain professional and perform his duties to the best of his ability and thus he should turn in his father for the greater good of mankind. Therefore the same goes for Euthyphro as well, he being an established priest in Athens must be the role model for the people in his time and place to follow and look up upon.

Another striking point is that, Justice is supposed to be blind. It should be impersonal and not personal. As what Euthyphro says “One should only consider whether the killer acted justly or not; prosecute even a killer who shares your hearth and home. You are just as polluted if you intentionally remain under the same roof with a person like that, instead of purifying both yourself and him by bringing charges” (P. 10) The point Euthyphro is making here is that whoever the person is, he must be punished if he commits a crime. If you do not turn the person in, you are just as sinned as the person who commits the crime. As the Chinese saying goes, if the emperor commits a crime, he is entitled to the same punishments as a commoner. This is very true and in the current context you could even be charged with the harboring of criminals and obstruction of the proceedings of the law. How would you feel if someone related to a being of significant political power here in Singapore murdered your loved ones and yet uses his power to prevent the prosecution of his relative? Therefore the point Euthyphro makes here is very ethical and applicable to the current society. He cannot harbor his father and prevent justice from being done to the dead man by standing by his father for his crimes.

A question I would like to raise here is that, what is the link between filial piety and piousness? Filial piety is a subset of piousness; that filial piety is a derivation from piousness. So how can it be holy and pious for Euthyphro to prosecute his own father such that by doing so, he is disregarding the filial piety aspects of being pious? Since by its definition, filial piety is the love and respect of one’s parents and ancestors. It is therefore certain that by prosecuting his father, Euthyphro is not displaying any form of filial piety towards his father. However, the crux of this argument is not just about being filial pious, but being pious in the bigger picture. What Euthyphro had done there was in his own views upholding justice and doing what he ought to do, his father did commit the crimes and if he were to display signs of filial piousness by siding with his father, wouldn’t Euthyphro be acting against what was deemed as holy and what was the supposed right thing to do? As I said before, he being an established prophet must uphold righteousness whatever the case and in this situation the actions of his father which led to the death of another murderer. To neglect this and allow his father to be acquitted isn’t it more impious? It could also be seen that since Euthyphro is empowered with numerous religious knowledge, his prosecution of his father could also be a method by which he could use to atone for his father’s sins. By which he understands that his father has sinned but this is not obvious to his father and as the son, he believed that he ought to help him atone for his crimes by prosecuting him. If this were true, wouldn’t Euthyphro’s action be founded upon by filial piousness as well? Imagine a situation whereby a defense lawyer fighting the case for a serial murderer who was in the end acquitted due to the outstanding ability of the lawyer. By helping someone who has sinned to escape punishment hasn’t the lawyer done something impious?

Another question here is that whether Euthyphro’s father even commit a murder in the first place? What happened here is that when Euthyphro’s father found out that the deceased had murdered a slave of the family, he bounded him and seek advice from a religious adviser. While bounded, the murderer was deprived of food and water and was dead before the messenger could return. In this case, Euthyphro’s father did not explicitly kill the deceased; it was actually negligence on his part that led to his death. Therefore the charge on his father should not even be for murder, the most it warrant was a charge for manslaughter. Also, on (P.10) “…even if he had completely murdered him, the dead man, being a murderer, doesn’t deserve a second thought.” Euthyphro’s relatives believed that there wasn’t anything wrong with even murdering the man since he was himself a murderer. However, their argument here is very wrong, if anyone could just take up sword and kill someone in the name of upholding justice and righteousness, wouldn’t there be a lot of super heroes coming out from nowhere. And wouldn’t those who kill justly ultimately also be a murderer? And this would cause a vicious cycle as such - whereby B kills A and C kills B because B is a murderer of A and D kills C because C is the murderer of B. This could go on forever if this act is deemed just, but this is ridiculous, as no one should be allowed to murder anyone just because he or she is being just. We should always leave such matters to the authorities and thereby even though the relatives claimed that Euthyphro’s father acted justly and the deceased was not worth the trouble. The father’s actions did indeed cause the death of the man. Although the charge for murder could be too strong since it was negligence which resulted in the death, Euthyphro’s father is still guilty in causing the death.

In conclusion, Euthyphro’s action is justifiable because his father did commit an offence that led to the death of their dependent. Euthyphro on the other hand, was a prophet of his time and he felt obliged to educate the masses on the matter of piousness and what was more appropriate than prosecuting his own father to show that he is impartial and that justice is blind. Such that anyone who commits and offence must be duly punished.

The Matrix and Philosophy

http://whatisthematrix.warnerbros.com/rl_cmp/phi.html


A topic that is recently discussed in my Philosophy lectures/tutorials.

Moral skeptism:

Let A be we are in the Matrix
Let B be we have a pair of hands.

Hypothesis 1: I do not know not A (I dont know I'm not in the matrix)
Hypothesis 2: If I do not know not A, I do not know B. (If I dont know that I'm not in the matrix, I dont know that I have 2 hands)

Conclusion: I dont know that I have a pair of hands.

Think about it.

Baaaad

This is bad.

The plan was to wake up at 8, go to the stadium and do a timed 2.4, but I slept till 11!

Next, wanted to practice my stats for tuesday's test, read my econs txtbk to prep for tomorrow's lecture.

But up till now, I'm not even done with a chapter of stats.

And I'm always on and off the bed. =/

And my darn headache is still not subsiding.

Panopticon

Today I came across this word twice, during my Nation-building and Sociology tutorials.

Panopticon.


This is essentially talking about the blue prints of a type of prison.


Below is a simple illustration:
Legend:
Red Cube in the middle: Place where the prison warden will be stationed.
Blue Cubes surrounding the circle: The cells where the inmates will be in.

The idea is that, the wardens can see what the inmates are doing but the inmates cannot see the wardens.
This idea has been emphasized alot to the inmates. What actually happens here, is that this so called Panopticon casts a "Panoptic gaze" upon the inmates. What it means by a Panoptic gaze is that, the wardens are not actually present, all that could be present is maybe a helmet or something, but the idea that they are constantly being watched has been so internalized with them, that they believe that they are watched and will tend to behave.

This concept is also applied by the CCTV, in fact most security guards don't really pay attention to the consoles. Potential robbers, thieves are stalled by the fact that they believe these CCTV will catch them in action and thus, will provide evidence for their capture/prosecution, thus they are deterred from possible crimes.

Luke's 3 Faces of Power

I saw this today during my Sociology Lecture on Power, Politics and the State.

Simply put, the 3 faces of power are:

1. Who makes decisions?
2. Who sets agenda?
3. Who benefits?

Not much reason to post this, but since there is Luke in it, so I was trying to analyse if I Lead and Follow me has anything to do with this 3 faces.

1. Who makes the decisions? -> Luke
2. Who sets the agenda? -> Theres no agenda, just follow Luke DOWNNN.
3. Who benefits? -> Erm....

PS. No offence luke. Haha.. I was just bored.

As stated in Wiki:

Lukes's most famous academic theory is that of the 'Three faces
of power'. This theory claims that governments have three ways in which they
control people: decision-making power, non decision-making power and ideological
power. Decision-making power is the most public of the three faces and is the
manner in which governments want to be seen: the power of governments to make
policy decisions after widespread consultation with opposition parties and the
wider public. Non decision-making power is the power that governments have to
control the agenda in debates and make certain issues (such as the possible
merits of Communism in the United States) unacceptable for discussion in
moderate public forums. The third and most important face of power is
ideological power, which is the power to influence people's wishes and thoughts
and make them want things opposed to what would benefit them, such as women
supporting a patriarchical society.

Dreams

Ok, I was at my 199th post. So I'm dying to get to the 200th post. Thats why I am blogging prematurely!!

I've been remembering my dreams ALOT recently. I had been rembering all my dreams for like almost 2 months. Some of them even carry on from where we left off a few days back. It almost seem like I was watching a tv serial. It can be pretty scary sometimes.

These dreams are rather down to earth and highly possible to happen, while there are some much more absurd dreams.

In one of the dreams, I was conferred the title "Royal Defenders of PIGS". Apparently for fighting for the rights of pigs.

Didnt have much sweet dreams but had a fair share of nightmares that always ended with me waking up in sweat, going to the toilet to pee at about 5am in the morning. =/

One of my most recent "dream tv serial" is about me being in some Special Ops Force either with the army or police or I was a mole for the HK triads. The setting felt so much like Infernal Affairs, in the first 2 episodes there was nothing special, but during the 3rd one, I remembered myself picking up the pistol (I couldnt see what model it was.) and as it appeared before me, there was a misfire and I shot my foot. And my partner said, "See, tell you to put to safe you don't believe."

And I woke up, to go to the toilet to pee.

How much more stupid can it get? Haha.

However I do wonder if dreams mean anything at all...

Happy 200th post!

Cherish Time

I am currently listening to Yes 93.3Fm.

Its a segment by Bukoh Mary, and she said a very interesting story.

One day, an old man was seated at a clinic looking very impatient. After awhile he walked up towards the reception and said to the nurse, "My appointment is supposed to be at 3pm and it is already 4pm now. I cannot wait any longer, please rescheduel another appointment for me. Thank you."

Seated near the reception, 2 middle age women were gossipping about him, they said "He must at least be 80 years old, what else can he be busy with?"

The old man turn towards them, smiled and said, "I'm 88 this year, thats why I cannot waste any time. Every minute, every second is very precious to me."

So the moral of this story is, cherish time. As time waits for no man.

As the Chinese Saying goes, “一寸光阴一寸金，寸金难买寸光阴”。- Time is precious as gold, but regardless of how much gold you have, you cannot buy back lost time,

PS. This story was said out in Mandarin, if my translation fail to bring out the moral of the story, I'm sorry.

Depressed??

While I was surfing the net for information for my Sociology Paper on the topic :"Job opportunities, pay not the same for women." This is essentially a new article from the Sunday Times 11th March 2007 by Serene Goh.

I came across this interesting quote from Association of Women for Action & Research (AWARE) :

When women are depressed, they eat or go shopping. Men invade another country. Its a whole different way of thinking.

Tuesday Night.

Lights, camera, ACTION...!

Its been quite awhile since I last watch a movie.
Its one of the main forms of entertainment a Singaporean can get nowadays. But sadly, I don't even have time or the money for it. Ok, I'm not that broke, but I'm just becoming a spendthrift recently. You never know what is going to happen next. There is no longer that form of job security at the rate globalisation is going now. If I strictly spend on just transport and my meals in school. I'll probably spend less than $200 a month. But if you add my phone bills, insuranceS, all the misc stuff. Thats not cheap, considering that I'm not working. (Although I'm procrastinating, I've yet to make a serious effort in looking for a PT job. Serves me right, in my opinion.)

But thats beside the point, the point I want to make today is regarding the movie. Haha.

Watched Pursuit of Happyness with Na at Causeway point. I think it is a fantastic show, I wasn't so particular about the draggy front part. What touched me is spirit Chris (Will Smith) portrayed in the film. Maybe now that I'm studying Sociology, I'm much more attracted to issues faced by society. What this film tells us is basically the American Dream. The dream to be somebody, to be successful. But yet, its never easy. Chris, invested tonnes of money in some high density scanner thing (Advance X-ray machine) but they dont sell well because Docs think they are a luxury good. He lost his wife, couldn't pay the rent of his apartment, got evicted from his 2nd apartment, got his car towed because of illegal parking, and when he sold all his scanner, whatever money he had was almost all taken away from all the fines which he owed. He became homeless. Seeked shelter from religious groups etc. But he never gave up. Fought for an internship in a renown broker firm. And eventually he succeeded amidst all the trouble and hardship he and his son had to go through.

This apparently is based on a true story. And it is definately something inspirational to me.

America may be a world superpower. A rich capitalist nation, but its proportion of people living on handouts and those homeless are very high. Income inequality is very prevalent there as well. Is there a way to reduce such problems? Are they homeless because they are lazy? Or it is this American Dream Pie is just a fantasy? Meritocracy is a fraud in the first place? There is no such thing as a level ground? The rich will always have the edge? What about those who fall from grace?

Look at Singapore, are there any homeless people here? Or is it we do not notice them? Or we choose to not notice them? Are we a truly Meritocratic society? Is upward mobility possible? Are we REALLY able to move up the class ladder? Does hardwork even lead to rewards? Or are we just part of a machine that keeps moving and even when we are worn out, we can always be replaced with another spare part? I'm not so sure about anything anymore.

Furthermore, Will Smith's son, who plays his son in the film is damn cute la. Haha. I think he is cut out for the same industry as his dad.

Beach

The sun, the sea, the breeze. (Not forgetting the bikini babes. Opps) What more can you ask for when you go to the beach? Haha.

Went to east coast park today with Na. Its been a really long time since I set foot upon the place. I think the last time I went there was before I taken back my pink IC. So its has been almost a year since I returned to the wonderful place. Much has changed since my last visit, alot of construction going on on the roads and pavilions. Furthermore, there seems to be an influx of people at the beach. When we were going to go up to the breakwater, we saw a lot of tents. This was almost like a BMT fieldcamp with HEAPS of basha apart from the bright colours and the presence of women.

Not forgetting the "promise", we finally went blading. Yep, I lost my "virginity" to blading today. While I was standing up after putting on the blades - My mind was filled with thoughts of regret, fear and embarrassement. I just couldn't stand still without my blades moving away from me. For almost a million times, I was trying to prevent myself from doing a split. Since Na isn't a very good blader herself, she couldn't teach me much. Thus I struggled for quite a while before a middle aged man signalled me over to him. (I guessed he see me blade he almost vomitted blood thats why he decided to spare himself the eye sore. Haha) Using my every ounce of energy, I eventually "rolled" to him. He started telling me my mistakes, and taught me the right way to move on the blades. After about 1.5hrs of practise which includes falling, breaking fall, ramming into the railings, preventing the countless number of splits and alot of encouragement from my coach, I am proud to say that, I can blade to a slight extent! (Meaning, I can move slowly in a straight line without falling too much. ) I didn't get the man's name but found out that he stays in Bedok, and has been coming to ECP everyday after he got out of job while chatting with him. But seriously, if it weren't for him, I wouldn't have progressed so much. But I got a feeling he is a army guy because he asked me to "Hentak kaki" with my blades. =/
But nonetheless, he rocks.

Now I am lobstered.

Its also time now to go do my readings. (7 more to go.)

Randomness at its best.

I've been studying alot about the importance of data set and distributions to be of random nature in statistics. But today I experienced another form of randomness.

For no particular reason,
I went to Cityhall.
Walked to Peninsula Shopping Centre,
Bought a Manchester United Jersey at Champion.
Headed home.

Although I've always wanted to buy a Man Utd Jersey, but this is awfully too random.

Bewilderment

Something I've always felt bewildered by.

Why is there a NTU poster for their College of Engineering at the NUS Engineering Busstop. =/

Oh well.

I'm very happy with my Econs Midterm results. MUAHAHAHA

Tired.

I've seriously no idea what has gotten into me. I'm so easily tired recently. I admit I don't sleep for more than 6hours, but I really shouldn't be feeling so damn exhausted. Oh well, I'll just have to keep up the coffee intake I guess.

Today is tutorial day again. Seriously, I'm never going to make the same mistakes again of putting all the heavy tutorials all on the same day. This is madness. The level of concentration is strongly negatively correlated to amount of time in school. By the last tutorial, I am just a corpse that talk.

I've gotten back my Nation-building test paper. I am pleasantly suprised that I've gotten a B+ for it, considering that I felt I totally blundered it after the test itself. I didn't even have time to finish and I had almost of quarter more to go, if I had finished it I might smell an A or A-. But overall I'm pretty pleased.

2 more midterms to go and 2 more papers to write before the finals and of course that means before the long deserved break from school.

Tomorrow is a free day. Regardless of the weather, I need to go running. If not, my previous training will definately go down the drain.

Sweetness of Success

No matter how ugly the way success came, it still taste sweet.

Courtesy of ESPN Soccernet.com

Taking a break...

Finally my mouse is free from her exams and I can meet up with her. The day was spent quite hurriedly. Met her at 3pm and we went to town, where she collected her ring which she sent for "repairs". Before buying her the MAC lipgloss which I was suppose to buy for her a while back.

I bought a pairs of Americaya shoes from the sales at the Taka square at B2. And she bought a belt and a pair of Charles and Keith shoes.

Headed to Bugis Junction after that and we decided to take neoprints. Its has really been awhile since we'd taken any neoprints. I find that the recent neoprints taken arent too glamourous. Maybe I'm getting older and I can pose as well, or I'm turning uglier. Maybe I'll soon turn into Ugly Bobby. Certainly hope its the former. Because for a totally vain me to admit I'm turning ugly, its the end.

Had our dinner at Phin's Steakhouse, it was'nt as good as I expected. Not likely to revisit the place.

Wanted to watch movie, but due to lack of shows which we wanted to watch, we settled for Coffeeing at Taka Coffeebean while I was reading my Nation building readings for the upcoming tutorial.

Following which we headed home, and I saw my ex classmate Eric (Star Chef contestant) along the way.

As I was walking past the Kopitiam on my way home, I heard the people shouted GOALLLL and so I stood there before the TV watching my favourite team celebrate their victory.

Now I'm trying to do statistics but I'm not exactly in the mood.

Giggs

Wow I'm impressed.

"Giggs will become only the second Red Devil in history -- after Sir Bobby Charlton -- to reach the 700 landmark, with all the indications the Welshman will eventually surpass his illustrious predecessor's club best 759. " - From Soccernet.com

Hail the Welsh Wizard!!

Meet ups.

Long day today. Left for school at 830am and came back home at 2300hrs.

First up was Econs lecture. Finally started on Macroeconomics. Its really been awhile since I read anything relating to Macroecons. But at least I kind of recalled what I learnt last time.

All my breaks today were spent on revising for my Econs test in the evening.

After my lunch break, I headed to my Statistics lecture and after that had an early dinner with Hein Hin and Kim Wei. Before heading to the central Lib to revise for my test.

Test wasnt too tough for me and I managed to finish early and left the LT early.

Then I headed back, to meet with Waiho and Aik Sheng, for a prata supper at Casuarina and did come catching up with them. Its pleasant to meet up with old friends. We should do that more often.

Anniversary

Happy 4 Years Anniversary Dear.
Love you.

Thanks for
Being there for me all these while.
Standing by me and along side me.
Giving me a chance to be there for you.
Loving me,
Letting me love you.

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PS. Its suppose to be posted on 3/1/07 00:00. I don't get why it cannot be displayed and its not even in my March Archives.

My post is now showing again. =/

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