Gotta catch them all!

Met up with WQ today. He became Captain for his team liao woah. Haha grats.

Been awhile since we met, and definitely a long time since we last went out together. As usual, we went on about our aimless walks in the shopping malls. Haha. It never changes.

Damn jealous of his internship pay though. =/

We caught pikachu and his friends at marina!

Conditioned?

In the past, I always wondered why I cannot actively recall where which alphabet is on the keyboard, but I can easily type without looking down at the keyboard.

Is this the power of the implicit memory? Just like how you will know how to cycle, once you learnt it?

Even with 3 sems down, I still cannot be certain this is the path I want to go down in the future. It is definitely one of the better choices, in terms of studies. But with regard to career, I'm still unsure. This post has a no relation to my results, in case you all are wondering if it is due to my under expectation grades.

I need more action I suppose. Even though I may not look like it. I can foresee the job of an Economist, Investment banker, etc... Can be pretty desk bound, a tad boring and mundane.

The most precious ability of Homo Sapiens, is to be able to think.
To perceive stimuli, process them, modify them and to apply them. But it is also this very ability to process that gives us a weakness - thinking too much. I'm starting to think too much, over every damn thing.

Cogito, ergo sum? But does this hold? So if I don't think, I cease to exist?

I don't look forward to becoming one of many socially engineered Singaporean. That was one reason why I made the daring decision to swap course.

I need a breakthrough, and I need to pursue something I love, which isn't well defined yet.


Messy thoughts. Not a pretty sight. I'm losing my organisation. I need to zone out for a bit.

Results

Never have I seen so many modules having the same grade.
I've 4 mods having the same grade. (Sadly, it doesn't belong to the Jiam Tao [pointed head] family)

My most not confident paper, became my best in the end. How ironic. And the paper that I thought would be my A+ of the sem, dropped a whole category to B+.

Even though I didn't do quite as good. I'm quite happy my not so good modules were quite well done. A reasonably respectable result slip I have to say.

But I must admit I was complacent, I shall relook into my study plan.

CAP dropped a bit, and I'm still quite safe in that class.

Results

Results tmr! 3pm for most of my friends, while 6pm for myself.

I think I cannot sleep tonight. =/

Anticipating, reluctant and a little unsure. Worried!!!

But anyway, good luck to all!

Being attached to finance dept is boring. Numbers and more numbers.

Nearly fell asleep. But at least numbers are something familiar to me la.

It's only until today that I realised that the finance people are actually quite nice too. I guess I was judging them too early.

My apologies.


Sometimes I look forward to work.
I admit I don't find the work interesting per se, but it is the company that makes me enjoy the work. =)

Something funny happened at work today. Haha. I shall not say it here.

Been typing ALOT, my typing has definitely improved, at least by a bit.

Met the Touche guys in the evening. Nice bunch of people.

Dreading 30 June. Don't like.

=/

Concerts anyone?

Anyone wants to go either of the concerts?

Angela Chang - 张韶涵's concert? 1 June 8pm.

Gary Cao Ge - 曹格's concert? 12 July 8pm.

It's actually quite shiok to turn up the subwoofer to the max and blast music at home while singing out loud.

Went down town to do some shopping. Quite tempted to buy shirts from Zara since there are quite a lot on sale, but I reckon have too many shirts.

Bought a pair of casual leather shoes from my new favourite shoe shop. Not very expensive and it makes it even more attractive since I redeemed a $20 voucher from UOB rewards. (I love their paper bag too.)

Papering was quite nice too. Although it's never really an interest of mine to make cards and scrapbooks. The positive influence from the dear has been phenomenal. Haha. I just need more of the creative touch.

I still want to sing K.

Emo Nemo

I forgot where I'd seen the "emo nemo" thingy, but I think it's quite catchy. Haha

Ya anyway, I'm feeling damn emo.

There are so many reasons that I could think of that is causing this emotional upheaval in me.

Perhaps it's because results are going to be released in 6 days time and I just have this feeling that I'll screw up. Furthermore, I know I could have put in more effort into it.

Perhaps it is due to work? After interning for 3 weeks, I've found out that I really detest desk-bound jobs. As what Na said, it could be the environment that make me feel that way. That I can't tell, I haven't been in any job that is desk-bound and fast paced. It's all the site/estate visits/inspections that makes me excited.

Maybe it isn't so simple. Maybe it just isn't such a micro view but rather a macro view of my life. My accomplishments thus far. Even though I'm into my 3rd year after hitting 20, I still feel kiddish. I'm an adult by legislation but still an emerging adult by theory. My mental maturity way surpass many of my peers, but thinking and talking shows nothing. I need to walk the walk, rather than just talk the talk.

On hindsight, I think it could also be due to my social life. Maybe I'm not sufficiently satisfied with my social life at the moment. After all, man is a social creature. Although we got the island, no man is an island.

I used to think I understood myself. But now, I don't know.

I have a secret. It's not a secret to some.
I've let the cat out a few times, perhaps I should let it be free?

Anyway, thanks for the suggestions of iphone and itouch. Think it is quite off my budget at the moment. But whatever the case, I'll let my results decide on the commodity to purchase or maybe even not buy any of them.

dilemma

Should I buy a PSP or an Ipod?

Since my Zen micro is dying.

Glory glory Manchester United!

Certain things aren't what they seem. But over these couple of days, I've enjoyed work so much more than the 1st 2 weeks. No doubt it is the company that matters most.

However, one thing really pissed me off. If you want me to help you with your work, at least have the courtesy to ask me personally. At the very least, give me a call.
Whatever. I think my junior senior should understand what I mean if she ever reads this. Haha.

background

I've taken out the bg pic.
Because it looks weird on different resolutions. Haha.

Till I can make a nicer version.

By taking out the knob and installing a new knob, I've learnt the easy way of dismantling a door knob. It is damn easy. =/

Its almost 2am. I'm going to wake up at 0530.

Just went on a mission break my dad's room door, because he was trapped inside as the knob was faulty.

Tools involved, hammer (which was half broken before the door broke.) screwdrivers and pliers and a raging bull such as myself.

This is a time when you wished you had bought the electric drill that you saw so many times and I think I need to acquire a hammer and chisel in my personal toolbox. Maybe a saw would be good too.

Anyway, Na and I saw a convertible drove past us and its bonnet suddenly flung open. What a rare sight. I think something inside broke too. Luckily there wasn't any vehicle in front or behind the car.

Vegas

What happens in Vegas is quite a nice show.

Romantically funny.


I'm a purple monster.
ROAR!

I wanted to blog about something.


But I forgot.


Anyway, meeting today was quite okay. Settled most of the stuff.
First time the whole team was around! =) And we had the honour of Ben joining us.
Okay la, not very honorable also la. He is our sai gang warrior. Quite poor thing la, President of the Society and yet being bullied to do stuff for us. Haha



Found out that KM have something going on with Gwen. haha. So coincidental.

YF is damn nice to talk to actually. lol.
Sorry bro, I only realised it yesterday and confirmed about it today.
Yeah I totally agree that optimism is king.

I think I can be a part time webmaster if most of the code is done and all I have to do is modify and edit. Haha


Parma relegated.
Milan no Champs League spot.
Hmm. Something I won't normally expect.

Calamities in Si Chuan and Myanmar are taking too many lives. Isn't it time for it to stop yet? Kudos to all the rescue workers out there and all those people giving aid to them.

Are these signs for something more devastating that has yet to come? I don't know.

Seriously.

I think we need to really do something abt the ed. sys. Our younger generation are being too spoon fed. It will get to a point whereby, things have to be IVed into their bloodstream instead of feeding them with the spoon.

Arts Open was tiring. Talking to people makes me thirsty easily. After talking to 1 grp of people, I have to drink 1 cup of water. I drank more than 10 cups today. Some things about the ppl coming in turns me off. I shall not say out specifically.

Minggu Kedua (2nd wk)

Another week gone.

Time flies. It seems like yesterday that I just started my internship at JRTC.
But it is already 2 weeks.

I'm really quite tired after all the waking up at 0530. But I guess I'm getting used to this bit by bit. Been attending On the Job Trainings (OJT) with the other new perm staff. Didn't really pay attention to most of the things la.

Didn't have much substantial stuff to do actually. So I just help out here and there.

Getting along quite well with my colleagues. At the very least I have been lunching alone less. =)
Just got jio-ed to join them for 'special lunches' here and there. =D

Just got psychoed to join YP, the branch near my workplace. I'll be going to check/help out their MPS next next monday.

Early today, went out with Satwant to check on the ongoing projects' progress. Went to check whether the specs of the covered linkways/walkways and whether the BFA are in accordances to the regulations.

In the afternoon, went down to a fire scene today with Minhat and Winnie. Although I didn't do anything besides talking to one resident, the CD and Police Officers and my 2 colleagues. They're really nice people too, and Minhat is damn funny. Haha.

At least it wasn't the same old issuing of work orders and the checking of arrears for Theva and Ghazali, which is damn boring. However, it is still better to do those stuff then to be zobolaning la.

It is good to know a little bahasa indonesia because they use malay quite often, so I can pick out a few words here and there.

Somehow, I feel that Singapore's Education system needs to be slightly revamped.

It doesn't teaches stress management. Creating a lot of Kan Cheong Bananas or my more familar phrase, Kan Cheong Spiders.

Don't ask me how. This is just a suggestion. Too much emphasis on practicality.

Chop chop ka li pok doesn't work all the time.

Really dont know what to say.

Jack asked about it. He said it seemed pretty serious.

I don't know about that. But he understands what I meant.

But I thought I understood how I felt. But now, it is starting to elude me. I don't even know what is real. I said something +ve to him that day, but now I'm not sure how +ve those +ve things are actually. Or whether it is +ve in the first place.

Apparently there is no difference whether I exist or not.

Sometimes I really wonder why I even bother saying anything.
Because nothing gets registered.

It has reached a point I'm no longer disappointed.

I'm disgusted.

Anyway, Jack has left for the States for his Work and Play in US Prog. Thanks for the concern buddy.

I hope you'll take good care of yourself and come back safely. I'm sure the gang won't mind loads of presents. Haha. Enjoy yourself and I hope you'll gain something worthwhile from this trip! =)

Seeya in 3 months!

*Edit
13 May 08, 00:19
na: I ALSO DUN MIND THE PRESENTS! =p*

Lost postage?

I always have this suspicions of "XXX will not be held responsible for any Items Lost During Normal Postage delivery."

What are the chances of losing your mail in SINGAPORE? SingPost is quite efficient one lea.

I'm not saying online shops out there are cheating people, but it is possible to have some dishonest people.

So to be safe, opt for registered mail.

But so far, I've tried both la.

Pai Lang Bin

My colleague, Raymond said this to me last week.

Li wu pai lang bin, zo zheng hu gang jin jia ho. Au bai lao tam po chui qiu ko ka sat ki.

Translated to, "You have a bad guy face, you'll make a good civil servant. You'll look more fierce with a bit of moustache."

Haha.

To QY: Wah lau. You flooding my tagboard la. Haha. Eh, true I agree you have to pay good to get your Kaka, else you'll end up with a Kuku. They should know that really talented people wouldn't settle for such peanuts. Thats why they have to squeeze you now to make their 'investment' worthwhile. I'm sure they know many would zao after the bond or even buy out the bond la. But as long as they can psycho a few to stay on beyond or have a constant supply of 'I will leave after 4 years talent', I think they can still survive la.

I tried

I really tried to connect with you all.
But I feel more like a tool then anything else.

Maybe it isn't the best option I made. But I'm a patient man.
I'll just slowly fade out when the time is appropriate.

But I won't walk out now.

Some things are a little disappointing.

Maybe I'm a disappointment and a let down too.

I really need to catch up on sleep. Haven't felt so shagged in months even though my job isn't tough. The boredom is catching up on me.

Their tempo is too slow. Hopefully next week would be better. I don't want to be a temp admin assistant.

Work is getting a bit more interesting because I'm having slightly more things to do.
I've gaining more insight towards their operation. Getting along quite well with some of the colleagues. However, some are just too difficult to approach and they have this "you owe me 10 billion USD face".

On course tmr. I wonder how it would be like.

Met up with Shaun, Jeremy, Javin, Felicia, Clarice, Wen Ling, Meihui and Shulin today for dinner at Timbre today. The ambience and food wasn't bad. However, I just don't like the way they try means and ways to "pressure" you to leave. I'll give 2/5 stars for service. And perhaps 4.5/5 for food and ambience.

Will probably go there later next time to see the live band.

tired

Not because of a busy day. But because I couldn't sleep last night.

It seems that I'll be embarking on a very all-rounded programme for this internship. Being attached to various departments to get a holistic view of its operation and apart from that, I'm tasked with a project that I have no official details on yet.

Will be going down to site visit tmr. Woo! Something different and less mundane.

Lets hope I wont be feeling so shag every night, because I still want to run and write essay plus conplete forms. =/

Filing up of forms

I'm embarking on a spree of filling up forms. (Essays too)

These forms could bring me to another level never once ventured to before.
Despite the vast amount of challenges that I would have to face, it is paramount that I fill them up.

Haha. Don't bother about me. I'm being out of point here with myself.

Anyway dear, I'm really proud of you. Go for it! =)

One of our favourite hang out.

Me donning me specs.

Street Directory.com

Please come back because I feel disabled. =/

The alternatives aren't even half as useful.

Bah, even sbstransit's maps are gone. wtf

自由

I'm free. But not free.

Psych was a bother. Quite disappointing considering I forgot a lot of the things that I'd studied. Maybe they were not encoded deep enough.

With the midterm results that I had attained for most of my modules, I was actually quite confident of doing well this sem, but now the bubble seem to have burst. Maybe complacency set in or maybe I wasn't hardworking enough for this sem. All in all, it has concluded, nothing I do now matters. So let it be, and I shall work on it next sem.

Embarking on my internship on monday. Wish me luck, since I have no idea what I will be doing until the very day.

Ps. I got present! =)

Self Efficacy.

I need more Self Efficacy for Psych.

Will having Self efficacy lead to a self-fulfilling prophecy?
I seriously don't mind =p

Inspired by Jack's Textbook, I've done another similar test on how Self-Monitoring I am.

I'm 46/100 censoring! Click to see my self-monitoring personality.

The questions are rather similar if not identical to the book.

Blah, shut up Grant.

Grant:
'Look, I'm not doubting the integrity of West Ham,' said Grant. 'I don't have a reason to doubt the integrity of Alan Curbishley.
'But I think it's wrong to say things like this because he's involved in the games against United. West Ham won against them in the last three games.
'I don't think it's a good idea to say things like this. I cannot be angry. I will not be angry.

It really doesn't bother me much even if it angers you. Besides, you are the one 'suggesting' something will 'happen'. West Ham has always been a jinx to Man U and I'm sure Curbishley is a person of integrity. Stop you ever so obvious mind games. It is so obvious it is getting disgusting.

And you inherited a multi million (or is it billion?) squad assembled by Jose Mourinho, so shhhhhhhh.

If Chelsea wins the league, good for you. If not, good for Man U.

Reading Psych especially on Abnormal Psych is rather disturbing sometimes.

Hair cuts are nice.
Especially those that are accompanied by hair wash and head massage.

And of course, during such crazy weather.

Went tuition just now, my tutee said, "You study for your exams la, I don't know anything then I ask you."

He is quite cute albeit a little mischievous.
And he goes on and on and on about MapleSEA, GetAMPED, Runescape, Audition and etc.

My printer is ALIVE.

It is creepy and eerie when your printer starts 'cleaning' its cartridges in the middle of the night when you are sound asleep.

I need to drink. I think I do.

Read sometime on The New Paper today.

A reader wrote in to complain that when her family together with their domestic helper came back from Malaysia and was at the Woodlands Check Point, their maid wasn't allowed access through the "Singapore" passport counter. Her point was that, when questioned about this, the immigration officer asked them to look at the signage. Her main query is why didn't the officer used his discretion and allowed their maid to clear through the same counter with them and they had to wait another 20mins for her to rejoin the queue at the foreign passport counter. She claimed that for the past 3 years, her maid was allowed to pass through the Singapore passport counter.

Well, firstly. It is pretty straight forward I guess, she is holding a work permit and not a Singapore passport holder. Rules are rules, discretion is another thing. 200 other officers might have been nice and used their discretion to let your maid through the Singapore pp counter. The #201 officer is just been following the rules and going by the book. He is not wrong, is he? Just doing his duty.

But being highly a educated Singaporean as you are, you should have no problems differentiating between the meaning of Singapore and Foreign right? Furthermore, the purpose of have Singapore passport counters is to smoothen and speed up the process of clearing the immigration for Singaporeans. By letting your domestic helper who is not a local queue with you is in fact an act of selfishness.

Next question,
How much discretion should be used when discharging official duties?