power

I've been looking back.

Back when I had the power to influence things.
Would things had been better?

Could whatever that has happened spilled over to other things?

Can a neurologist please open up my brain and see what is going on inside?
Because I think a psychiatrist would not suffice.

Today I failed. I failed to be normal. I grumped my colleagues.
I'm sorry. But they are nice. =)

edit:
I know having flash backs won't change anything. But nonetheless, I still wonder if things would have turned out differently. What done cannot be undone. What said cannot be unsaid. Life goes on. Live it, live strong.