Roused

MOVED~

2008-12-22T01:46:00.001+08:00

I have moved!

http://summernewkai.blogspot.com/

C-clones

2008-12-03T20:37:00.002+08:00

"City hope to sign "world superstar" in Jan"

I really don't like the idea of having some rich dude buying some football club, spending a few hundred billion pounds on famous players. Yes, granted money makes the world go round. But, would football is more than just a star-studded sport. It's a team thing. You cannot rely on Robinho to keep scoring for you just to save your ass.

Besides how are you going to sign a "world superstar" given your standings and competitions involved and the rest of the players there.

Soon, all the clubs will become Chelsea-clones.

Grrr?

2008-11-30T23:22:00.002+08:00

I found this damn hilarious as I was looking at the live commentary on soccernet, on the Manchester Derby.

"Rooney is in full scowling, frowning mode - if he were a cartoon the speech bubble would say 'Grrrr'. "

Yay! Man United Won~

1 month after...

2008-11-29T18:36:00.004+08:00

and it is 29th November!

Happy Birthday(s) to...

Mister Liang Qiyang
Miss Lucia Loh
Master Nicholas Lee

And a coincidence, all their surname start with L. Haha.
=)

Happy Happy Day!! =D

Evil.

2008-11-29T00:43:00.003+08:00

Condolences to the family of the deceased, Ms Lo Hwei Yen. So young, and such a bright future ahead. Sigh. It is saddening to have a fellow Singaporean passing from such cruel and senseless acts of terrorism.

What is the rationale of using violence to solve problems?
Why can't human beings all have this function, download the latest morals package, then we wouldn't have such damn problems.

Sadly, many people have wrong morals/ideals and/or are being taught wrong morals/ideals by their "teachers".

Perhaps it is right, humans are really the root of all evil.

But as much as I can whine and say here, there really isn't anything much I can do now. Though I'm not religious, I can only pray for her to find her peace in wherever she may be, and also for her family to pull through and hang on.

Ownage

2008-11-26T15:45:00.001+08:00

I got owned and pwned by the "game".

Ouch.

生命过客 - 童安格

2008-11-24T16:55:00.002+08:00

Heard 李伟菘 sang this on the Channel 8 Gala show.
Brings back more memories. I really loved this song then, and of course, I still love it.

Meaningful lyrics.

Book?

2008-11-22T21:00:00.001+08:00

I chanced upon this book, titled, "How to Pass Your Exams."
I was thinking, I could have been able to write such a book too.
It would probably be a thousand pages long thick.

With the sample below:

And there you have it, my thousand page book, with only 10 pages filled. The rest are all blank.

I don't know about you, but to me, there really isn't a methodology that helps you to pass your exams, besides hardwork and clarification of your doubts.

Myself?

2008-11-20T21:39:00.001+08:00

I ought to be studying, but I still decided to be a net rat.
My interest elicted from Jack's comments, and linked from Luke's blog. I did this test, which seems awfully similar to the one I did EONs ago. (Probably is the same one.)

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

If only being straight forward doesn't get me killed. =)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Well, true. But let's face it, it still matters to a certain extent.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

No idea what is "might that person" suppose to mean. But I'm no gipsy with a globe. I'd rather believe in nurture and building love. But of course, you need 2 hands to clap.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

If I were to have tactics, does that mean I take love as a RTS game? Hmm. Then, it probably can't be too serious.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

Well, yeah. But, there is still a practical reason behind it.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

Quite likely, although I will choose not to believe so.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

Yes, nothing will stop me from trying. But as to whether I will be successful, we'll see.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Gee. Nope. Since I can't control it, why on earth should I be afraid? I'd probably be used to it by now. I'm more afraid of things that I can control, and that I screwed up.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

I actually use my heart and head quite effectively. I'd always portrayed such an image to others, since I hear such comments often. However, I often wonder how true is this, how much of my advices are good.

我是幸福的！

2008-11-17T22:09:00.001+08:00

刚刚看完电视，是第八频道的‘心晴大动员’。

今天这一集，说道一个一家三口的小家庭。
爸爸在六年前因为糖尿病而得拒掉一条腿，装上了义肢。
因为他行动不便，很多雇主都不想聘请他。
结果，他便在家附近摆摊卖报纸。

妈妈呢？在九年前因为一场意外而跌倒。结果神经断了。
也是行动不便。更糟的是在五年前，女儿推她的轮椅时，
因为地不平而把妈妈绊倒。从那一天起，她便不再下床了。

可怜的女儿，今年才九岁，就得帮母亲倒排泄物、煮饭给家人吃、
帮父亲卖报纸、还得做功课；非常懂事。真是难得。
她长大后一定会出人头地！
我看了都觉得惭愧。

我的命真的是比她好上千千万万倍。
怎能说命苦呢？要比苦，还轮不到我呢！！
既然那么幸福，就因该跟好的生活下去！
朋友们，我们多数都是幸福的。要好好珍惜生命！

大家要加油！

My Cool Tee!

2008-11-15T01:05:00.001+08:00

the internet is for..... ****

2008-11-13T00:35:00.002+08:00

why you think the net was born??
*orn *orn *orn!!!

Omg. Avenue Q is damn freaking CUTE!!

So entertaining and totally cheery!

Quack

2008-11-11T23:26:00.001+08:00

Quack Quack.
No point. No point.

H_P

2008-11-08T17:15:00.000+08:00

Hippocreep.

But Hippos are cute. So they aren't creeps! =)

Finally over. Yay.

The mixed strategies

2008-11-07T23:25:00.004+08:00

Life is like a game.
There are many strategies you can play.

But there could be many different outcomes with different payoffs.

Sometimes you'll get subjective payoffs that you don't really know what is the real one.

The superficiality of being superficial.
The childishness of being mature.
The loneliness despite the company.
The feeling of not being alone despite being alone.
The despair albeit the happiness.
The feeling of bliss even though you're in pain.
The complexity of being simple and yet the simplicity of being complex.
The lost feeling even though you know what you are doing.
You don't know what you are doing, but you are doing it right.

Bliss is when you are seemingly alone, but yet you don't feel so.

Happyness is when you take your dinner at almost 11pm though you are not hungry, but the amount of food you consume satisfy your desire/cravings.

Lucky is when you have friends who will stick with you, through thick and thin and support you when you do anything.

Happy is when a simple gesture of yours make someone smile.

Post Number 600.

2008-11-04T21:00:00.002+08:00

Hey blog!
I'm back. Perhaps for the last time.

Has been a week of going on an emotional rollercoaster. Perhaps not of myself, but of all the people around me.

I know what I see. I should really be a detective.
But I'm glad. The hero came to the rescue.

Happyness is self determined. It is up to you to decide whether you want to be happy. No one is supposed or not supposed to be happy. You choose your destiny.

2 ups, 2 downs. Not promising, but not devastating. I will survive, as I've always had.
Offered by OCBC already accepted. So I guess, my journey to the land of buns and 小笼包s is finally coming true.

Come to think abt it, there are so many things that I will miss when I leave. I probably will cry for a few days when I reach there. Lol.

Went to 王力宏's concert on Saturday. All I can say is. WOW. Fantastic! I never really say, loved him. But I'm damn impressed with the concert and his performance.

Have you all ever thought of this?
If one day, just that day. There were no laws, and regardless of what you did, no one would know/bother/retaliate. And there are not retribution/repercussions after that day.
What would you do?

(This was a question raised by someone from the gang quite long ago. Haha)

This sem is finally coming to an end. I cannot wait.

Take care blog. I'll see you again if we're fated. If not, it is time for another blog. =)

Judgement

2008-11-01T00:44:00.003+08:00

Finally had some energy today.

Loving impromptu stuff. =)

Judgement:
–noun
1.
an act or instance of judging.
2.
the ability to judge, make a decision, or form an opinion objectively, authoritatively, and wisely, esp. in matters affecting action; good sense; discretion: a man of sound judgment.
3.
the demonstration or exercise of such ability or capacity: The major was decorated for the judgment he showed under fire.
4.
the forming of an opinion, estimate, notion, or conclusion, as from circumstances presented to the mind: Our judgment as to the cause of his failure must rest on the evidence.
.....
(Extracted from www.dictionary.com )

My judgement of things had been poor.
Eyesight blurred by haze.
Foresight overshadowed by hindsight.

3 years back, a bad judgement was passed. History seems to repeat itself, even though it may not be in the same context. Whatever the context, the concept is the same. A wrong judgement leads to a wrong outcome. So is History really useful?

Yeah I'm someone very keen on History, and I think it is definitely useful, however, it depends on how we make use of this vast ocean of knowledge. Many people say, learn from your mistakes, it's easier said than done. Yeah for many things, talk is well... just cheap.

Some times I feel disgusted with myself, but heck. Thou shall not taint thy soul.

Some things are just plain disgusting, and perhaps can't be accepted even by myself. Perhaps this is life. The real deal. The closer you are to something, the less you can see, the further you are, all the answers come flocking to you like vultures to carcasses.

Some times I wonder, what is life really like? Is it like taking a stroll on the beach? Enjoying the breeze and the tan? Or walking aimlessly through the desert, with hungry vultures waiting to swoop down on your corpse once you collapse? Or even, cooing like a baby in the baby cot.

It is definitely not like that of the baby cot. Life is never so innocent and beautiful, perhaps it can be, but things and people around will certainly taint it.

But as to whether you enjoy, hate or dread it, it would have to depend on you. Yourself. Mind over matter they say. Perhaps that is too telekinesis, but with the right mindset and attitude, whatever shit you go through wouldn't seem so shitty after all.

I've rarely posted such entries in quite a bit. Perhaps I've been lost in the abyss for quite some time, losing track of time, space and personality.

Maybe it is time,

time to end this blog. At it's 599th post.

A week of running to the toilet

2008-10-30T17:05:00.002+08:00

How exciting it is to run to the toilet as though you were still in army and you were told that you have 7 mins to fall in in your Full Battle Order.
I was so well trained in turn outs, that it is 2nd nature. But now I lost, I succumbed to the challenged posed to me from my stomach. This isn't 2nd nature at all.

Having fever that comes on and off. Breaking out into cold sweat all the time. Waking up in a pool of sweat. I think I lost enough water. Which was why I was numb. Ha.
I even lost 3kg in 3 days. It's even faster than visiting a slimming centre. lol.

Every odd birthday after my 20th birthday has been plagued with illness. Lets hope it is just coincidental. Thanks for all the well wishes and presents everyone! =)

Lets hope my life gets back to normal. I'm lagging behind enough to flunk horribly. No more time and space for such crap.

Horribly horrible.

2008-10-27T22:42:00.002+08:00

The formula for food poisoning = popeye's + choco fondue + nydc's pasta.
I don't know what is the exact cause, but I'm feeling horrible. I suspect it is the last one.

Had the runs so many times already yesterday and this morning. I thought I would be alright since I wasn't feeling so bad while I was in school sewing stuff. But, when I was on my way home for dinner, I had to pull out my woolie to keep me warm on the bus and train. And even with it on, I was cold. Now I feel like I'm better off unconscious. Haha.

Oh well..
Anyway interview with Bakerzin was not too bad. Quite enticing. =)

Week...

2008-10-26T01:07:00.003+08:00

Long week of number crunching and magic performing.
Strained Mind.
Long day too.

But a nice german sausage + beer dinner and a sweet treat dessert + meet up with the guys just makes life better.
Thanks guys.

If there is only one thing that I'm thankful for, for serving NS, it is you guys.

Thanks for the woollie pullover too! =)

Thanks for pei-ing me run around bugis and lavender looking around for halloween stuff. =)

The Build up

2008-10-23T22:39:00.003+08:00

Responsibility: It means to give tuition on your birthday because your boy has Olevels Math paper the day after.

The build up towards that day is so similar to that 3 years ago. I've totally lost myself yet again.

Lost all my train of thoughts.

Duck.

*edit
Nvm, some came back..
First time in my whole Uni Life, have I not done more than 10 tutorial assignment consecutively.
First time I studied for a test, the day before.

Today is a bad day.

Woke up with a headache.

Kq drove me to school.
The traffic condition was horrible. ALL the routes to school jammed. And my test was the first lesson. Thanks to Kq's superb driving skills, I was only late for 5 mins. And luckily Labor test wasnt so tough.

Went to GT tutorial, and didn't understand a shit. What's new.

OCBC interview. Not good.

Labor tutorial, didn't do in advance.

Capitaland 2nd Interview. Damn not good.

On train, my foot was stepped on like 10 times.

Tuition ended late.

and 3 more weeks to exams.

I'm so in the mood.

Responsibility

2008-10-22T23:36:00.003+08:00

re·spon·si·bil·i·ty
–noun, plural -ties.
1.
the state or fact of being responsible.

re·spon·si·ble
–adjective
1.
answerable or accountable, as for something within one's power, control, or management (often fol. by to or for): He is responsible to the president for his decisions.
2.
involving accountability or responsibility: a responsible position.
3.
chargeable with being the author, cause, or occasion of something (usually fol. by for): Termites were responsible for the damage.
4.
having a capacity for moral decisions and therefore accountable; capable of rational thought or action: The defendant is not responsible for his actions.
5.
able to discharge obligations or pay debts.
6.
reliable or dependable, as in meeting debts, conducting business dealings, etc.
7.
(of a government, member of a government, government agency, or the like) answerable to or serving at the discretion of an elected legislature or the electorate.

(Retrieved from www.Dictionary.com)

This is a value that is very important to me.

No compromise.

2008-10-21T11:22:00.001+08:00

Totally wasted 8 to 12 today.

More inefficiency coming to a sheep near you.

Shawn the Sheep

2008-10-20T00:17:00.006+08:00

I miss being Shawn the Sheep. (http://www.shaunthesheep.com/)
Baaaa...
It's the time and place where I didn't have much worries.
Albeit boring at times, it's generally fun! Esp the company!

Okok.. I have no freaking idea why I am feeling rather lost and totally deflated.
Had a rather long day today. But it was a nice day. 绿茶! Whee! Haha. Despite the rain.
Sesame bun is nice! A pity they ran out of xiao long bao, I think that is one reason why I'm emo. Lol. Didnt satisfy my craving.
Perhaps its the 1/4 life crisis.
Too much (-ve) aura from people all around.

I've too many cravings recently, I feel like I'm pregnant or something. Haha.

I guess I'll probably cut my hair on Fri, do some work and rest. Perhaps run a bit.

And I'm feeling hungry now. This is bad...

One of Shaun The Sheep's Episode.

Changes

2008-10-19T02:04:00.003+08:00

Some things do.
While others don't.

Why can't it be different?

Waiting

2008-10-17T11:21:00.000+08:00

The need to wait for time to pass, and for the phone to ring is horrible.

2008-10-16T21:48:00.002+08:00

Why is Capitaland SH, 凯德置地 while the Main Company in Singapore, 嘉德置地.
Made me confused for a while. Haha.

Dean's office called, regarding the prospectus. Interesting.

有一些东西我真的不了解。我也不去管那么多了。要讲你就去讲吧。。

2008-10-16T00:06:00.002+08:00

Woo. Another interview coming. Hehe.
Capitaland this time.

Jiayou to me!

NEW THINGS! WHEE!

2008-10-15T00:04:00.003+08:00

Got many new things! Wahaha...

This is a happy post! Haha.

Got a new bag. (finally gotten rid of my robinsons voucher)
Got new bracelet and cufflinks from mummy!
And I got a new watch! WHEEE! Thanks mansu! ^^
And of coz not forgetting the teh from so far away. =P

Although this is long overdue, thanks for the coffeebeans "choco" as well. Hahaha

Education

2008-10-14T21:39:00.003+08:00

I wonder what is the essence of education nowadays.

What is the point of being in a top 5 JC when you cannot even help someone with the slightest of things.

One little example, an old lady was stretching her hand way out trying to press the bell of the bus, this guy from a certain JC, was right in front of the bell, had 1 hand free and just stared at the old lady struggle to reach for the bell without helping. I would have pressed the bell, if I werent holding on to a laptop and a plastic bag and the handle, even though I was not in a very convenient position myself.

I always thought education would make the society a better place, but... I'm losing faith in this shit. This investment in human capital seems to be making humans more inhuman and more capital. I have heard way too many stories about how kids take their parents for granted and threaten them etc.

So education gives them knowledge but takes away their morals and civic-mindedness?
So I assume this is a zero-sum game then? Whereby, Knowledge + Civic-mindedness = a fixed constant?
Any gain in Knowledge must be accompanied by a corresponding loss in Civic-mindedness?
So, change in (+ve) Knowledge = (-ve) change in Civic-mindedness.

Okay, enough of this whining.

MTI-NUS Dialogue is over, it was a pretty good experience, even though I was just a slacker there. Yes I know, I have to admit this. The food is really quite good. Had a rather engaging conversation with a couple of the Economists there and they made my desire to work in the Public sector even stronger. It could be hard selling from their side, but I still want to try.

Today is a red egg day! Haha. Thanks mum.

I over slept on the train for the first time in so many years.
Miss the station when I came back. Haha. Oh well. I guess it is a sign that I should sleep more.

2008-10-13T22:59:00.001+08:00

Gee. OCBC SH cancelled interview because they have to work with their current level of resources.

明日歌

2008-10-10T00:46:00.004+08:00

明日复明日、明日何其多。
我生待明日、万事成蹉跎。
世人若被明日累、春去秋来老将至。
超看东流水、目看昔日催坠。
百年明日何其多、请君听我明日歌。

不要把今天的事推到明天。。。
是不好的。。。

我忘记在哪里学过这首明日歌，但是我对它的影响还挺深刻的。
或许是在小学的高级华文班上学的。。。

Ponders

2008-10-07T22:10:00.004+08:00

Not that it struck me suddenly,
But I just realised that my language abilities are pretty limited.

Gotta work on it.

Arh.. And I was damn wrong about the Economy being near the bottom.
Apparently, we are still going on a downward spiral.

Pls come back Bull, we need you.

好朋友

2008-10-06T00:37:00.001+08:00

像兩首節拍不同的歌
卻又同時被愛情合奏
旋律勉強著

愉快不能夠假裝快樂
你心中有寬闊的天空
但空氣好稀薄

＃曾經以為等待會改變什麼
你總會屬於我
但是最後時間證明了
你只喜歡我＃

＊你說我比較像你的好朋友
只是不小心擁抱著
你道歉　你難過　於是我給你笑容
誰在乎我的心　還會不會寂寞＊

如果愛情是五線譜
我曾希望用全音符
吟唱出　愛上你　那完整的幸福

但你的心沒有耳朵
即使我為你唱著歌
你也只　看見我哭了

REPEAT＊＃＊

你說過我是你最好的朋友
卻不應該再擁抱著
你退縮　你冷漠　於是我放開雙手
不在乎我的心　會永遠的寂寞

*PS 一首我很喜欢的歌。。。

Routines

2008-10-05T14:29:00.002+08:00

I just realised that I'm no longer following certain routines.

And the shocker is that the 42km run, which could be my last is 2 months away.
So.... before it really becomes my last run for good.

I better start training.

Running routine starts TODAY.
But now that I have weird schedules, I have no idea how to work around it.

My free nights are, Fri, Sat, Sun, Mon.
Unless I run on Tues night, after Andrew's class.

This is a pretty bad schedule.

Nvm, I shall work around it, this wk must run 15 to 18km.
Next wk. 18 to 21km.

Need to clock 45km one of these wk. And a single run of at least 32km (I think)

And considering that I need to taper down, I am really short of time. Argh.

But as of now, I need to go for another marathon. International and Game Theory marathon.

My life is messed up.

2008-10-01T22:12:00.002+08:00

Wasted a good day to study.
Nvm...

Had another chat session. Haha.

2008-10-01T02:29:00.001+08:00

I had a super long chat with mummy after going down for supper.
12mn to 230am. It is nice.

Tired. Going to sleep.

2008-09-30T17:02:00.001+08:00

If your laptop d/cs like 30 times in 2 hrs.
Its time to change a new one. LOL

2008-09-30T16:07:00.002+08:00

FTW
WTB
WTS

These terms are so familiar...

Reminds me of the days when I was still CRAZY about World of Warcraft....

Quite tempted to play it again.

But i know i will pull down my CAP.
Which I am not going to let it happen again.

=)

Library

2008-09-30T10:40:00.002+08:00

It has been a while since I blogged in the library.

I was having my 2nd breakfast alone at the deck just now.
(As usual, I'm hungry every 2 hours)

I suddenly thought of the old deck. Some of you may not have seen it, but I very much prefer the old deck compared to this new one, though the new one has been around for 1 year already.

It feels much cosier then, the dimmer lighting, despite the lack of seats and the stuffiness. But the old deck feels more homely than this one. I'll miss the times I ate there.

Suddenly, I miss my amkss friends a lot. Okay, maybe at this point in time, I've deterioriated to becoming an ex-class/schoolmate to most of them. I wonder what led to that. Perhaps I was too anti-social then. JC mates seem to be meeting up lesser and lesser as well.

I feel rather deprived.

It's how weird that I'm thinking of such things now, it's almost like flashbacks you get when you're on the deathbed. But nah, I'm not going to do any thing stupid. And even if this is a sign, I will be extra careful when I'm outside.

I'm feeling horrible now. =/

2008-09-29T23:40:00.001+08:00

It is really bad.
Never undergone such a session before.

=(

Formula 1

2008-09-29T00:37:00.002+08:00

My first F1 race.
Never a fan of F1.
But as a guy, I sort of follow a bit. Trying to conform, as usual.

I'm sure many Ferrari fans must be upset, but life's like that.
I'm quite happy Alonso won.
It proves that anything can happen.

Always one of my most important motto.

"Anything can happen... if you believe in it."

Bishan Blk 155

2008-09-28T20:51:00.004+08:00

I love the void deck there.
Windy and quiet.
Somewhere where I can relax.
And have some peace of mind.

Tuition there is a chore though.
Ask me if you want to know more.

That colour is so familar.
But yet so far away.

Life is Fragile

2008-09-28T15:29:00.002+08:00

People come and go.
There are new lives arriving,
And some old ones depart.
Everyone fears death I'm sure,
But life's like that my dear.
Take it easy, take it slow,
Watch the birds and smell the rose.
Enjoy life the way you want,
For no one knows when one passes.
Live your life with no regrets.

Take care dear.

2008-09-28T02:32:00.001+08:00

谢谢妳的零食。
=)

妈妈咪呀.

2008-09-27T15:12:00.002+08:00

其实看完这一部电影让我感触良多。

正在赶我的中文 CV 和志愿书。花了好长的时间才写好我的 CV。
要把所有的一切翻译成中文并非一件简单的事。

我也该开始温习了。
拜拜。

张惠妹 - 我要快乐

2008-09-26T16:55:00.002+08:00

张惠妹 - 我要快乐

又被爱伤了一遍
无所谓当作成长
刚刚走开的人
烟还点着味道却淡了
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有

我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨我早应该割舍
我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的

把从前想了一遍
谢谢了伤我的人
想做乐观的人
每种雨声听了都不冷
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有

我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨我早应该割舍
我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的全都是假的
我的决定是对的

PS: 不要想太多；我只是很喜欢这首歌！有谁不想快乐？对吗？哈哈
可是每当唱 K 时，都没法飙到对的音调。呵呵。

Time

2008-09-26T01:16:00.001+08:00

I think time is the best search engine.

Study day.

2008-09-26T00:09:00.002+08:00

Jiemei study day.
Finally found out my cam got new functions today. I feel so noob.

Haha.

Mamma Mia is fun.
Must get the sound track.

I lost the bracelet my mum got me for my 21st birthday. Sad.

On the side note, I seem to have lost something else as well.

Resolution

2008-09-24T16:27:00.002+08:00

I need to re-align myself before i go off course.

I'll probably have many things to do and to settle.

1. Studies... I have kind of forsakened it for a bit. I cannot carry on like this.
2. Chinese/Mandarin
3. Work
4. Life

And something that cannot be ranked,
Happiness

Needs
1. Probably need a new lappy.
2. Fitting blazer?

You know, it sucks to buy an ipod and a new one is released like 1 month after that? Haha.

Inefficiency of the public transport system?

I think it is damn stupid for the train at the middle platform at Jurong East MRT station to wait for 5 mins to allow itself to fill up (It has like 10 commuters per carriage at that point in time.) then close its door and moves off, just as the train heading towards boon lay opens its doors.
Yes, granted they cannot allow the wait time to be too long and delay the red line's timing. But perhaps better coordination can be implemented.

Bleed and split.

2008-09-24T15:19:00.002+08:00

A day filled with splitting and bleeding. Haha.
Head splitting and nose bleeding.

It was quite shocking to see the basin splattered with my blood while I was washing my face.

我得跨出第一步，才能好好地拥抱美好的未来。
可是要跨出那一步，需要很大的勇气和毅力。
不想那么多了，想在头好痛，又流鼻血，先休息一会。

Know?

2008-09-23T00:18:00.001+08:00

No I don't.
Frankly speaking, I don't know what I am doing.

我真的不知道我到底在做什么。

Cyclohunt.

2008-09-21T15:01:00.001+08:00

Pls kids, next time when got a cycle related race. Count me out.

My old knees cant take it. Haha.

A leisure night cycling would be enticing though. =P

Tyranny.

2008-09-19T22:06:00.002+08:00

Some of you might have already known.

I have been accepted by NOC for the Jan intake. It all boils down to getting the placement in one of the companies.

A chance of a lifetime many say, especially since I was given a chance to revive from the dead.

It is a happy problem I have, but looking at it objectively, and by my 歪理。I have made the right choice.

Thanks for the Jupiter, Tyrant. Really really touched. =))

It's Care-ne-leh =))

Life Philosophy

2008-09-19T01:27:00.002+08:00

My Philosophy in life is simple,

Don't regret your choices and be happy.

2008-09-18T01:23:00.002+08:00

Rejected by NOC, but I got an interview with the Head of NOC tomorrow evening.

Wish me luck!

Fire

2008-09-17T22:51:00.002+08:00

Fire can be a source of life, but it can be a source of destruction and devastation.

My neighbour's house caught fire today, the whole unit was charred. I just stay 1 level above, although not directly above. But my house was still quite affected by the smell and ashes.

It is quite sad to see such things happen.

However, it did brought back some nice memories of the days when I was still at JRTC as an intern. It totally reminded me of the time I followed Winnie and Minhat to the scene of fire. It is largely similar just that this time round, I am part of the affected resident.

I miss them. Miss lunching with them, slacking around, inspections. =/

Should visit them soon. =)

Wake up call.

2008-09-17T17:51:00.002+08:00

This is seriously my most horrific semester.

Need to buck up a lot.
I feel damn inferior in a lot of things.

Some things just hit me right smack in the face.
Ouch.

Aim high aim high. =)

Grats for doing so well. =)

emo nemo finding nemo seeking memo wanting momo

2008-09-15T00:37:00.002+08:00

When you are down and out.

It sucks to listen to mp3s on the comp, especially when they are all love songs.

Matters

2008-09-14T23:41:00.001+08:00

It matters
He matters
She matters

Everything matters.

人是犯贱的。
这句话说得一点也没错。
我也是犯贱的。
因为我会特意去做让我很伤心的事。
为何要到如此的下场？
为何要自己用刀来割下自己的肉？

2008-09-10T23:39:00.000+08:00

向前走吧。。。 =)

曹格 - Superwoman

2008-09-07T13:36:00.000+08:00

Early in the morning I put breakfast at your table
一夜都没睡但我不曾如此清醒
我早餐准备了你爱吃的东西
这次换我等你被咖啡的香味叫醒
想要找回每天早晨对我微笑着的你
还能够做些什么代替我的歉意
总是望着我小心翼翼顺着我呼吸
而我竟然理所当然让你精疲力尽

You were my superwoman
安静的在身边无条件给我梦寐以求的温柔
But I am only human
我怎么不懂你多寂寞残忍的犯了错
不能失去你 Ooh—Babe---

You fought your way through the rush hour
Try to make it home just for me
月光下静静靠着彼此只求夜长一点
有多久没有好好看你只是认定了我
无论在什么时候回头都有你的笑容
是我忽略了你也会有想要哭的感觉
没有一种付出应该永远心甘情愿
再给被宠坏的男人最后一次机会
换我忍耐换我等待不要真的弃权

You were my superwoman
安静的在身边无条件给我梦寐以求的温柔
But I am only human
我怎么不懂你多寂寞残忍的犯了错
不能失去你 Ooh—Babe---

是我把爱想得太简单
以为只要我存在就能让你取暖
心里唯一的superwoman没有人能代替
不能想像更不能原谅这样让爱化成灰烬

You were my superwoman
安静的在身边无条件给我梦寐以求的温柔
But I am only human
我怎么不懂你多寂寞残忍的犯了错
不能失去你 Ooh—Babe---

If you feel it in your heart and you understand me.
Stop right where you are everybody sing along with me.

2008-09-07T02:37:00.002+08:00

如果我能够让时间倒转，我会重新做很多事。
可是，要让时间倒转，是不可能的。

如果可以选的话，我宁愿自己痛。
很想自己捅自己一刀。

2008-09-07T01:53:00.001+08:00

I shouldn't blog my thoughts out.
Seriously. Ha

You should know why. =)

Swimming

2008-09-06T11:21:00.002+08:00

He says I'm weird. I don't think weird is a good word to describe.
But I know what he is driving at.

Actually, I'm very pissed off with myself. I really hate to in this situation.

But what must I do?

Maybe I should just void myself up and swim.

2008-09-04T00:41:00.001+08:00

AGM is over. At least one thing off the list.
=)

Tired. Sleeping. Good night world.

Hope to see you soon world.

Pow

2008-09-02T22:43:00.000+08:00

Dug out an old photo...
What JCC does to you. Haha

2008-09-01T01:51:00.002+08:00

Can one to bleed to death and let all those around not bleed at all?

Weekend Galore...

2008-08-31T22:11:00.002+08:00

NOC interview was not very good. Nvm.
Went Comex with ZY and EL on friday after lunching with WL and Clarice.
Had this super full tea time buffet at Sakae. Omg. So sinful. Haha.

Saturday was nice. Bought books from borders, I suppose reading is still one of my favourite hobbies. I shall read more. Finally bought 'The Wealth Of Nations', the book that led to the rise of modern economics. Haha.
Went for the GV movie club anniversary event at fort canning park with Na. First time we went for an outdoor movie! It had been raining quite heavily through out the whole day, but luckily it stopped when it was nearing the time. They screened "Make it happen" and "My Sassy Girl (English version)", it is a sneak preview as both films have yet to be released for screening. The other plus thing is that, there were stars! And the occasional bats that fly around.
Watching movie in the outdoor on a starry night (not many stars la, but there are some stars) is romantic and nice. =) Hope you had fun~

Went for the Nike human 10k run today, well I didn't think it was a very well organised run la. But on 2nd thoughts, maybe they have their constraints. The lanes were too small, too much run walk run walk. Haix.

Since there are more and more runs coming up in singapore and singaporeans and residents here are taking up this sport more readily, I think there should be a workshop/seminar/talk on the courtesy of running. Like maybe,
#1. When you want to stop, go to your left most or right most.
#2. Don't stop suddenly, look around to see if there are anyone very close to you.
#3. Don't road hog and run together in a straight line.
#4. Don't blast your mp3 so loud that you cannot hear ppl say, "excuse me."

Had a rather irritating run today. Had to zig zag all the time, and I neared f_ed like 20 people in the ass because they just stopped. Maybe I should learn to not tail gate.

But overall, it was quite okay la. Saw Mao mei! Haha.. Saw Thye Heng too.

Nice weekend. Time for work now! =)

2008-08-27T23:38:00.002+08:00

I'm in a position that I don't want to be in.
I know more things than I think I should know.

I find certain practices rather hypocritical, and undemocratic. However, if I really position myself from the view of an outsider, I think I can understand why. However, each has its own good and bad.

Oh well. Haha.

Hand writing?

2008-08-25T16:23:00.001+08:00

View Report
Welcome Shawn Xie, here is your handwriting analysis.

Shawn uses judgment to make decisions. He is ruled by his head, not his heart. He is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see him as unemotional. He does have emotions but has no need to express them. He is withdrawn into himself and enjoys being alone.

The circumstances when Shawn does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets him mad enough to tell him off, he will not be sorry about it later. He puts a mark in his mind when someone angers him. He keeps track of these marks and when he hits that last mark he will let them know they have gone too far. He is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All his conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. He is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, he has poise.

Shawn will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. He would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, he will show his love by the things he does rather than by the things he says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because he feels his mate should already know. The only exception to this is if he has logically concluded that it is best for his mate to hear him express his love verbally.

Shawn is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to him, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of his sound judgment. He will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. He will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and he will always ask "Is this best for me?"

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Shawn doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Shawn will be candid and direct when expressing his opinion. He will tell them what he thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want his opinion, don't ask for it!

Shawn is a cumulative and procedural thinker. He likes to have all the facts before making a decision. He thinks or creates much like a brick mason, stacking fact upon fact. His thought pattern or the conclusion will not be complete until the last fact is in place. Like that brick wall, Shawn learns faster through visual demonstration than through quick verbal instructions. Once he has learned new material, and understood it, he won't forget.

Shawn is a methodical thinker, therefore he is able to build things and come up with new ideas. In an argument, he often loses to rapid thinking people because he is thinking thirty minutes later about what he should have said. These people often are very booksmart, but can be out-gunned in a rapid fire verbal debate.

He may learn new ideas at a slower pace than other "less detailed" people, but once he gets it, he can handle repetition. Some people hate jobs with too much repetition, he can handle it better than most.

Shawn is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. He needs to visualize the end of a project before he starts. he finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said he plans everything he is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Shawn basically feels good about himself. He has a positive self-esteem which contributes to his success. He feels he has the ability to achieve anything he sets his mind to. However, he sets his goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". He has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, he will not take great risks, as they relate to his goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, his self-perception is better than average.

Shawn is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect his ego when he feels hurt. He pokes people harder than he gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Something is incomplete in Shawn's life. He feels frustration relating to his physical needs and desires. Somewhere in his life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Shawn's sexual needs.

Shawn is very selective when choosing his inner circle of friends. He excludes all but a few from his fellowship. He limits his intimate friends to one or maybe two people. He tends not to trust the masses of people but chooses only a few to trust.

Shawn has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. He lets new people into his circle of friends. He uses his imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

Shawn has a very unusual lower zone y loop. If the data input is correct, Shawn's y or g is large and opens up to the left side of the page. This is not a common trait, but the implications are very interesting. As you begin to study handwriting analysis, you will learn any loop indicates imagination. This lower loop indicates the amount of imagination Shawn has regarding sex and physical things. So, his lower zone stroke is large, so his sexual imagination is large and open. Furthermore, because the loop is incomplete and extends to the left, this indicates a particular fascination with certain aspects of sexuality that have not been fulfilled, yet. In a nutshell, Shawn is open to some very new ideas sexually and is willing to try anything once. --> I didnt know this. haha. And contrary to this, I think I'm not so open.

http://www.handwritingwizard.com/

2008-08-25T15:54:00.002+08:00

I am still pretty lost.
For many things.

Friday's k session brought in so many thoughts. It is really a time when I pay full attention to the lyrics. I found so many songs that I can find relation to. Perhaps that is one of the reasons why I love singing. Ha

I should learn to void things.

Many many things to do. But I'm so tired to start doing anything.
And school just started. Haix.

And there are some idiots screaming at the carpark near my house. I thought someone got murdered...

Run, Cramps, Queue, Semi fine dining, wine, cake, coffee

2008-08-25T00:13:00.002+08:00

Went for AHM today. Took a cab down. Felt quite cheated as I thought I remembered there is supposed to be shuttle bus from all stadiums when I registered. Or was it only for std chartered.

Spending about $19 to go to Padang to put bag and wait for a race isn't very smart and rational.
Padang was damn muddy, before the start, my shoes were already half covered with mud.

As with other races, the start is always the most irritating portion of the race. A rather long walk before we managed to start running. As per my previous half marathon, I cramped at about the 15km mark. I'm really starting to wonder what is wrong. The cramp isn't a normal cramp, its like my muscles cease to function and they will just harden and be so stiff that I cannot move them. A rather torturous 6km of limping and super slow jog.

Queued for the nike race pack, took us 1.5hrs. Some queued for about 3 to 4 hours.

Went Modesto with the gang. Had something different from the previous time. Luke sponsored the wine! Thanks dude. And I got damn red. I dunno why. Haha. After that, we went to Earle's Swensens for an Icecream cake and some coffee.

TIme to sleep! My eyes are closing as I am typing this.

High Tea!

2008-08-24T15:02:00.004+08:00

Backdated post! Haha.

Met na for lunch and tea on thursday.
The fish soup is really special. Rather different and unique. Heh.
Finally went Canele, after walking past is so many times.

Bushmen Brew and Berry Black (Or something along that line.)

Strawberry Crepe

Some choco cake (It has a nice name, but it just seems to elude me.)

Sing sing sing!

2008-08-23T18:48:00.004+08:00

Finally released the tension of insufficient singing. Haha.
Someone can sing quite well woah. Haha.

Changed of dinner plans coz of the crazy queue, but dinner was still pretty good! Haha.

Drinking at Giraffe was a rather new experience as well, the drinks are pretty cheap and finally tasted my Irish Coffee, warm liqueur. Hmm, nice..

Irish Coffee

Thanks for the brownies! =)

2008-08-22T00:21:00.002+08:00

I guess that's that.

Finally had that fish soup from bugis. Not bad. Really.
Canele was quite nice too. =)

I guess some things changes, while not others.

2008-08-20T18:37:00.000+08:00

Persistence is the key to many locked doors...

2008-08-18T21:18:00.003+08:00

今天星期一，雨天。

上课时，我一直没法专心。
下课后，和朋友一起吃午饭。聊了蛮久，还蛮开心的。
吃完后我便到书店买课本。队排的好长喔。。。

去剪了头发，感觉还不错。

还有也去跑了步。跑了大概两个小时。
每当我开始想放弃时，我就一直推动自己，不让自己停下来。
就这样跑着跑着，一边听着MP3、一边看风景、就不知不觉跑了一小时五十分。

我喜欢跑步，因为它让我减压、放松。
心情不好时，我会去跑步。

想着想着，如果我能把在跑步时的不屈不挠的精神放在学业上，我的成绩应该会让我骄傲。
可是每当想温习功课或读书时，我都会想很多东西。胡思乱想。
真讨厌。。。

很老实说，叫我用中文来写 blog 等于叫我去杀人。。。

写得好辛苦啊！哈哈！

2008-08-18T00:09:00.002+08:00

i'm becoming more and more like the person i hate to become.
maybe it is karma...

I'm easily satisfied. But yet easily annoyed. I've become rather temperamental.
He says I'm crazy and I think I have to agree....

Gotta snap out of it.
NO MORE OF SUCH SHIT, SHAWN XIE KAIWEI!

*slaps.

Exogenous

2008-08-17T23:22:00.003+08:00

Exogenous
–adjective
1.
originating from outside; derived externally.

Life sucks. Especially when too many things are exogenous.
So many things are beyond your control. No matter how hard you try to avoid it or try to keep it away from you, it will still come right smack in your face. If you manage to avoid it, it will haunt you another time.

I don't like many things that are happening around me. It's everywhere. Every little thing happening everywhere is pissing me off. Retail therapy didn't work very well.
I need HTHT and air lung session BAD. Looking forward to friday. Air lung and dim sum! =)

It's always a bummer when it comes to affairs of the heart. Many turn to me for a listening ear and some turn to me for advice. But why me? I'm not a love guru. I'm equally lost when it comes to things like this. Love is a 4 letter word that is too complicated for me to fathom. I'm not chasing away ppl who want to talk to me abt anything la. Haha. Don't be mistaken. I'm always glad to lend a listening ear, even part with one of my ear. =)

Tmr I end school at 12. Anyone wants to go out??????????
I think I will be a good boy and come home early. Get a haircut. Its quite bushy as what Clarice said. And I agree, I don't like hair touching/covering my ears. Try to clock 12 to 15km in the evening to prep for sunday's AHM.

Went for RUNNUS today, hate the ups and downs. Seriously. Haha. National University of Stairs and Slopes. =P

Went to Augustin's party just now. Think he is damn cute, as usual. =)

Fuck.

2008-08-16T00:13:00.002+08:00

I've never been so pissed off by a utter stranger.

FUCK YOU.

And if you want to call and tell me off, at least let me have my piece first, don't be a pussy and "kap" the phone. Asshole.

Sorry for the strong language here.

But I hope you DIAF.

New Beginning.

2008-08-15T22:49:00.003+08:00

A new beginning.
Back to status quo.

For better or for worse, life goes on even if it sucks.

I'm still comtemplating on what I told you on the train.
See how it goes.

At least all the mist and fog has been cleared. The path may be uncertain, but I'm sure there will be light somehow.

Whatever the case, still in pursuit for my academic excellence.

.. said:
let urself go n have fun!
let loose of urself
dun care abt wat protocols or planning
wana meet up with who then do it

--> Yeah. I should be like this.
Thanks jiemei!

2008-08-15T21:01:00.002+08:00

Seriously, I was in a damn sucky mood today. Right from waking up.

Maybe I'm just being anal unnecessarily. But anyways, I did my favourite thing to compensate myself for all the distress. Retail therapy!

Really bought things from head to toe. Haha.

Anyway, thanks Kaimin for ur dim sum treat today! Grats on winning the OCBC award.
Though a tad disappointed we didnt sing K today. I had been like dying to sing, and was excited and looking forward to it.

Nvm, I'm going to sing next week! (I hope)

Went Wala with Shaun, Javin, Jaren and Felicia yesterday.
Finally drank Hoegarden's forbidden fruit. Erm, not exactly damn nice la. But ok lor.
And the band sang -->

Always be my Baby.
David Cook.

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No!

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....

You'll always be a part of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

....... Really.

So Happy~ haha. My new all time favourite song. =)

After that Shaun, Fel and I went to NYDC for complimentary cheese cake. haha. Its nice to go there and not pay. Had some interesting chat topics. LoL...

2008-08-10T08:55:00.002+08:00

Been looking at the blog/book where thoughts, which are meant to be unseen by others, are being entered into.

A lot of distraught-ed thoughts.
A lot of crazy individual moments.

Thought it didn't feel like myself.
Perhaps I have schizophrenia. Haha.
Maybe not.

I should have a book to write happy thoughts instead.
And have selective amnesia for unhappy ones.

Good morning world!

Feverish...

2008-08-09T21:01:00.002+08:00

What a joke. I've been telling people to drink more water, sleep early, etc.
Now I'm the one with the fever. Haha.

Nvm, time for another panadol popping weekend.

Must start studying, perhaps right about now. =)
No more WoW to distract me.

Hope NDP went well for ya. ^^ Black Knights were pretty stunning.

New sem resolutions
#1. Jump in CAP in the positive Y Axis.
#2. Bring joy to others.
#3. Survive the stand chart full marathon.

Less important resolutions
#1. Being able to run topless and not causing people to faint. haha
#2. Get a bit more tanned. (A frequent member in the resolution list, but it never seem to be realised.)

=)

2008-08-09T11:08:00.002+08:00

It is really nice to have a tutor remember you and asking you on how life is. Haha
Thanks Ibu.

Well, I guess I have some traces of bahasa indonesia left in my blood. Haha. Maybe I should start a BI blog too. Waha.

Boring day!

Forensic Heroes 2

2008-08-09T04:16:00.003+08:00

Haha.
Chiong-ed finish it! Yay! Really nice show.

2008-08-08T02:19:00.003+08:00

I'm quite addicted to Forensic Heroes 2/ 法证先锋 2. Haha
Cannot stop watching! Haha.

Hopefully my canto will pick up subconsciously. Haha.

Wednesday was a great day.
All I can say is that, I really had a great day and I enjoyed myself.
I hope you did too~ =)

寻找快乐。。。

2008-08-05T21:47:00.002+08:00

I hate last minute meetings.

Don't ask me why.

Was quite unlucky on Sun, broke my specs as it jumped out of my pocket. So I have to replace the lenses or get a new pair. I chose the latter because I think frame less specs are dangerous and hazardous to my wallet.

Went on an excursion with the jiemei gang, to deliver the cheques to the participants, didnt really receive good reception. 1 particular school particularly made me want to puke.
But island creamery is nice!

Went for the student leader networking session after that and well, it wasn't all that bad. Didn't networked much actually.

Went to my final eye check up at NUH, and for 5mins of consultation, I had to pay 60. Haha. Luckily it is the last one. I am really really broke this month.

Met wl for tea at lot 1 after that, quite nice to suddenly sms someone to ask if they want to meet up impromptu. Haha. Caught up a bit and then I went off to tuition. Haha.

Random

2008-08-03T15:05:00.002+08:00

Went for my first Mambo last week.

Yeah, I never really liked clubbing. I still don't even though I enjoyed myself quite a bit.
I suppose it is the, "forget-all-the-shit-and-let-your-hair-down-dont-care-about-anything-mood" that makes me enjoy it.

On the side note, the dance moves are quite fun. Its quite fun trying to learn what those ppl up on the platform are doing. Hehe

I haven't felt so released in so so so long.

However, I really don't mind going again if the company is right. =)

2008-08-02T23:29:00.002+08:00

Maybe it should have been like this long long ago.

Oh well, but as of now.
I'm happy. I've found several sources of joy, I hope. =)

Anyway, just came back from a National Day Dinner at Khatib. Haha. The food isn't too bad. =)

I can't wait for school to start. For so many reasons. =)

=)

2008-07-28T03:41:00.002+08:00

I'm tired but I can't sleep!!!

There is this feeling of euphoria deep within me. NEFMQ is finally over. It went on very well, apart from the minor food shortage issue. After one year, we've finally tasted the fruits of our labour. And boy are they sweet. =)

There is another reason why I'm feeling euphoric. =)

Bidding starts tomorrow! I'm so going to dump all my Prog points into Macro 2! Haha.

I realised I haven't blogged about my baby bears! Lol.

Econs camp was over for a while, all I can say is that my OG rocks! Throughout the whole camp, I was feeling rather down, but just by their spirit and enthusiasm it kind of cleared my moodiness. An exceptional bond was forged in the short 3 days. I really hope all of you will carry on staying close and have each other's company in school and of course outside school. =)

But sadly, with all your energy and liveliness, you all make me feel damn old. Haha. =/

Things

2008-07-20T21:42:00.002+08:00

Been quite busy here and there lately.

Many things happened. Somethings concluded.
Perhaps it is a new chapter in life.

Whatever the case, I hope life will be good for all of us.

Fracture...

2008-07-07T20:42:00.001+08:00

Mummy fractured her toe after kicking her bedframe by accident!
=/

Hope she recovers fast.

Busy wk ahead.

2008-07-07T12:50:00.002+08:00

On MC today. Actually, I maybe am not sick until I cannot go to work la. But thats not the point.

I'm going to one of the branch office for this week. Although it will be just 3 days, considering I'm on leave on fri and on MC today. I really dislike changes. Yucks.

Next ICT will be high key and most probably during Sept 09, so that means, I'll have to defer. It is supposed to be ATEC 1, so does that mean, I'll be posted out again and posted to another unit? =/ Thanks for putting me in a 4th cycle NS battalion.

I didnt mention this, but I saw Encik CS Teo while I was having ICT, he is now a 2WO. Saw Delta 3 APC also, he's a CPT now. It is amazing how small the army is. Saw my BMT OC as well.

Got to settle some stuff for NEFMQ, easy but manual work, a little bit of camp stuff and a lot of packing up. My room is in a horrible after war state now. Have to agree with mum here, can't even find a spot to put a cup on my study table.

Plan timetable!!! So many modules that can be taken, don't know what to take. =/ Grr..

Train for runs.

RUNNUS anyone?
www.runnus.com - 17th Aug.

After that, I'll have
AHM 24th Aug.
Nike 10k 31st Aug.

Standard Chartered 42km -7th Dec.

Back

2008-07-06T07:56:00.002+08:00

In camp is over.

Not entirely as bad as I had imagined.
I'm with the people from 6SIR 10th Mono Charlie Coy.

Damn coincidental right? Haha.

It is a bit hard to blend in initially, due to the age gap and etc. But generally I guess it is still quite alright. Most of them already have families etc. I'm like still a kid, who haven't really seen the world yet. Learnt some things about life from them as well. A pretty good exp I would say.

On the lighter note, I cleared IPPT there, though I failed to get my silver. Hah
Might take it again.

ICT

2008-06-29T21:38:00.001+08:00

I'm going for In-Camp Training tomorrow, 30th June till 5th July (Sat)

Anything just sms me. =)

Hope it will be fun! Yays!

I really hope so.

手心手背都是肉

2008-06-29T01:23:00.002+08:00

I'm really quite glad with the talk as well. =)

A real case of 手心手背都是肉.

2008-06-28T02:49:00.000+08:00

I miss you

power

2008-06-28T01:53:00.004+08:00

I've been looking back.

Back when I had the power to influence things.
Would things had been better?

Could whatever that has happened spilled over to other things?

Can a neurologist please open up my brain and see what is going on inside?
Because I think a psychiatrist would not suffice.

Today I failed. I failed to be normal. I grumped my colleagues.
I'm sorry. But they are nice. =)

edit:
I know having flash backs won't change anything. But nonetheless, I still wonder if things would have turned out differently. What done cannot be undone. What said cannot be unsaid. Life goes on. Live it, live strong.